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I am not lucky like Maudy Ayunda

Yap, 1:43 AM waktu Indonesia. Rejection Letter datang dari kampus tujuan. Hanya karena akreditasi kampus. yeah it does matter dude. Padahal 2017 itu daftar dapet-dapet aja LoA dari 3 kampus, tapi sekarang huft.. Binggung deh sekarang.. Masih punya keinginan S2 Abroad tapi seringkali gagal terus bos HAHAHAH Just keep my head held high and see what God has offer to me with these rejection 
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OVERJOYED

Akhir 2018, saya mengevaluasi diri dengan apa yang sudah saya lakukan di 2018 kemarin.  Egois dan tidak melibatkan Tuhan, ya itu hal terbodoh yang saya lakukan tahun lalu.  Alhasil, penyesalan. Mengawali tahun 2019, saya pelan-pelan belajar menghidupi yang namanya berserah, dan tidak memegang kendali atas keinginan pribadi.  Jika orang lain berkata " Tuhan itu memberikan kita akal budi dan " our will ", jadi keputusan yang kita ambil atau langkah-langkah yang akan kita jalani, ya minta Dia yang memberkati " atau ada yang lain mengatakan " Kita buat dulu gambar abstrak kehidupan kita mau gmn, nanti minta Tuhan yang revisi ".  Saya sangat menghargai pandangan dari mereka, tapi belajar dari pengalaman saya sendiri dan mulai menjalani yang namanya " Saya punya mimpi, tapi saya berserah Tuhan apakah mimpi itu berkenan/tidak, jika iya, minta Tuhan yang plotkan timmingnya dimana, jika tidak ya hapus saja, Tuhan ganti dengan apa yang Tuhan mau untuk say

TRAINING RECOVERED PAPER - AOTS, JAPAN OCTOBER 2017

When God says He Will Provide

Excited yet anxiety so far.. I have been 2 years at work and afterwards I want to apply my dream scholarship ever in UK, it's Chevening. I prayed in that time to God. I wanted to work first before get a chance to study master degree. And now, He gave me what I want and beyond. He gave more than I asked, but I cannot deal with these problems and overwhelmed. I left my first job in last December 2017 to decide my selfishness determination. After that, I can focus on this scholarship and I will prepare for the another scholarship, LPDP. However, all my plan got ruined. We plan to, but God has His execution. I unemployed for about 2 months with anxiety and Mum's murmuring. I thought it was inconstant distractions, but it gained a monster worries inside my mind and soul. Because of financial matters, I finally looking a job (AGAIN) to stimulate our daily need. Pay bills, church-needs and more. I am working because of MONEY. I neglected the brain-skills and choose th

Sandwich

Good morning! And Happy Ied Mubarak 1437 H to all my Moslem pal My Mom was visited her brother in Bandung who celebrate it, but unfortunately I can't joined her because I have preparing and studying for something. So today as usual I'm hungry I need breakfast. Usually, I always have a sweet breakfast like sweet bread with chocolate and cheese also milk. But today, I want something different, I want salty breakfast. I opened the refrigerator and found: 1. Bread 2. Cheese 3. Egg 4.Butter First put some butter on the bread as much as you want Second, I fry the egg and add some salt and pepper Third, After all ingredients are ready Put some slice of cheese on the cook bread Fourth, Add the egg after slice of cheese Fifth, Covered with cook bread again, like this Uh oh I remembered my Dad was with me, he didn't joined my mom either. So, I cut it half for my Dad I know

Creamy Linguine with Fish Ball

Happy sunday! It's weekend and time for made an experience with kitchen. Today I was went to market like a daughter who gave a mission from her parent. I was like a kiddos, asked every corner of market to find something haha So, here's those ingredients: Linguine Fish ball Cheese Cooking Cream Parsley Pepper Onion Garlic Salt Steps: Boiled the pasta   boiled for 3 - 4 minutes Fry the onion, garlic and fish ball Cook.. After the pasta was ready,  put them together add cooking cream and cheese stired them put some parsely on top And my dinner is ready.. Creamy Linguine with Fish Ball Forget about my dinner diet and HAPPY IED MUBARAK EVERYONE WHO CELEBRATE IT ^^

I Could Never Be Your Woman

Hi! Mungkin terasa aneh kalau saya biasanya hanya share tentang masakan. Kali ini saya mencoba untuk berbagi cerita yang saat ini sedang saya alami, terutama perihal mencintai lawan jenis.  Tidak biasa saya berbagi dilingkup seperti ini, saya selalu meng-keepnya dan hanya beberapa orang saja yang mengetahui.  Tapi saya rasa, ini tepat untuk bisa bagikan, supaya dapat mengurangi kegelisahan. Baik. Saya akan memulai sharenya. Berawal dari tahun 2008. Pertama kali saya menginjakan kaki di salah satu SMA Negeri di Jakarta Selatan.  Jaman SMP, saya pernah menyukai seseorang dan berakhir tidak baik, saya berdoa supaya saya suatu saat dapat bertemu dengan seseorang yang spesifik seperti yang saya minta waktu itu kepada Allah.  Dan, benar!  Jawaban saya itu diberikan oleh Allah pada saat saya menyadari setelah 1 minggu bersekolah di SMA tersebut.  Awalnya saya tidak pernah menyadari ada seseorang laki-laki yang begitu memiliki nilai plus.  Saya sebenarnya l